Turnin Me On

Just got done listening to the song now i feel it's only necessary for me to mention a couple of my turn ons and turn offs. So, allow me to get started.

1. It turns me on so much when a guy has swag and can dress. More than the usual red blue black and white. I like a guy that's not afraid of color. Some may call it shallow but i have a shoe fetish and i like a guy that can match my flyy so him having a lot of shoes or at least a few nice shoes is a plus. For some reason the skater/rockstar style is my fave. the tight shirts and not so loose pants and chains. . . yep so sexy!!!!

2. A man with a body just turns me all the way on. UHM when i look at a man and he is nice and toned with some muscles OMG i l0oooovvvveee muscles. Especially if he has some nice broad shoulders. . . wow!!! I need a man i can really hold on to lol

3. To go off of #3 i love a man with tattoos ESPECIALLY if he has a nice body. That just looks so damn sexy. The more tats the better i'm talkin about tatted like wayne minus the facial tattoos.

4. I love guys that can play basketball. . . for some reason watchin a man handle the ball and be aggressive on the court turns me all the way on. Its just manly to me and i love manly men.

5. This one is so random but i love guys with mohawks (not the crazy big ones a little one) its just so sexy to me. Weird i know.

6. A big turn on for me is when guys touch me in ways that aren't sexual, but their manner is sexy. For example,  it turns me on when i guy just lightly touches my chin while he stares in my eyes. . . OMG the boo did it  the other day and i almost melted in my seat. or like if we are talking and he just randomly gets really close to me where we're almost touching but not really. the sudden closeness. . . Yeah you get it.

7. Lastly, (there are more just limiting it) I love it when a man smells good. DAMN. . . i love it. i have encountered many guys that don't where cologne but their clothes smell like freshly washed laundry or theri deodorant smells really good and strong. (i have encountered many guys who wear degree and that shit smells so good)

Turn offs

!. OMFG. . . i really hate skinny guys. It just turns me off so freakin much. Its just like i'm lookin at a female with no boobs. YUCK i need something to look at something to hold i mean damn hit the gym,

2. Light skin guys turn me off. It just doesn't appeal to me. Especially when they break out their acne is so digusting all nasty and red and gross oh hell naw i will pass on the light brights.

3. I hate tall tee wearin ass negros. NO that was so forever ago. Let it go now. It looks like you are wearing a dress so let me question  your manhood.

4.  A major turn off of mine is dirty shoes, When i first see a dude i look at the face to see is it koo then my head immediately goes down to the shoes to check his footwork. No matter how fine he is i will straight deny a guy for some messed up footwork. OHN!!!!

5. Raggedy teeth 

6. A guy who constantly talks about sex. . . please find a new topic i am perverted enough on my own i don't need you talkin to me about sex kuz that's not all that i'm about. You telling me how much you want to have sex me does not turn me on its rather disgusting actually.

7. Lastly, a guy with no damn manners turns me all the way off. I love to watch a guy that can interact with elders and speak properly to them and show that he has home training. Not a guy that will just curse in front of elders and not show them any respect WTF

My first Blog

So. . . after all of the times that i said i was gonna start a new journal or a blog, i finally decided to start a blog. This will be a way for me to release what i have on my mind or just occupy my time. Right now i am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I'm desperately trying to bring my grades back up after illness made me miss classes. Along with that I am dealing with the hardships of my first college relationship. I decided that i was done with the childish relationships that i had in the past. I was ready to fully give myself to someone. Meaning that he was going to be the only guy in my life other than the 3 male friends that i had. There was going to be no more flirting with guys and entertaining them. I was going to learn to please my man like a woman should cooking, cleaning, and being there for him when his days were rough to just listen to him or to rub his back and just hold him. I was promised that he would be real in return. It all started off GREAT!!! We spent days and nights together and I cooked and cleaned and did what i felt was necessary to make him happy. Then it all fell apart. First, it was said he needed some "me time". I told him to take his time and not feel obligated to call me or text me while he was having his own time. . . then i was called dumb. Then, me posting photos of him on my facebook were called "publicity" and "showing him off". I thought that if you had a boyfriend you could post pictures of him  not to show him off but because he was your man and apart of your life. Lastly, i was accused of trying too hard to please him. I've never heard of someone complain about being pleased, and i dint' feel that he was even as happy as he could be. So, where did I go wrong. It hurts to know that the person i decided to settle down with and start a new me with is backing away from our initial deal of being real and serious with one another. I ended friendships and hurt my ex to be with this person and those are things that i can't take back. Now I'm stuck wondering if I should try to rekindle this relationship or if i should let it be. Hmmmm. . . .